Everyday Life

Well, we are fianlly ,hopefully,settling into routine here. I work 3 mornings a week,now,in the childcare room at a gym.

The other days,I run errands,and take Rachel to drop in activities as I can. On Saturday mornings i hve her in ballet. There is othing cuter than5-6 little ballerinas. She is LOVING it. I am so glad i put her in it. I think it will be so good for her. I like the other parents. We ostlysit and tlk ,watch our girls,drink coffee. Soemtimes I knit.

Oh yes. I've taken up knitting again. I just find it so....calming. Back in June,I read this novel called Divas Don't Knit, and it inspired me. Within days I went out and bought about $70 of yrn and stuff....I've made 2 purses,3 scarves (one for small stuffed aimal,though) 2 dishcloths,and I am still working on another scarf,a blanket for said stuffed animal,and another dish cloth. And I promised Rachel's ittle friend Bella I'd make her a purse too. Someday,I may attempt to make something that isn't retangular!

I've been triyng to read more..right now I am reading The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society. It's quite interesting.

It's only Tuesday evening,and already,I am ready for the weekend. Monday was crazy. Took Rachel to strongstart. Then,I took her swiming. As we were leaving there centre fter swimming (I had some errands to run) I noticed kids palying in the gym. Yep,the Little Rascals drop in was just starting. So ,I left Rachel there to play for 2 hours well I did my stuff. Well,was Rachel ever tired when we finally got home around 3:30. She fell asleep on tehcouch. The about 4:30,I got a cll form co-worker saying she was ill,could I come in. Of course, so I woke up Rachel,and off to work til 7:45. then work the next morning. Then to A & W for lunch,and after that I went ot the drop in clinic as my ear was still hurting. Rachel had a rough eveing. She is so tired poor thing.

I had planned to take her to strong start tomorrow morning,then to library storytime,and then I have to work wenesday night too. it's just too much,though. we'll sleep in,maybe do library storytime,and of course work.

So,hopefully,tomorrow will be more relaxing.

A little Angry

Yeah,I'ts been long timesince I updated.

I don't knowif I mentioned it here,but when I left the sda church,I said in my resignation letter that I did not want phone calls or visits convincing me to change my mind. I thought it was obvious this was directed at the church board and pastor,as well,the letter was adressed to them.


Nope,turns out they took it to the whole church one Saturday....people i love and miss thought I didn't want them to contact me,and had no idea why I left. (Guess they didn't share THAT part of the letter?

I just feel sick about it...so not my intention. I foudn this out from 2 people..one freind who knew me well enough to know I hadn't intended for her to find out tht way..and another lady who just felt awful thinking I didn't want anything to do with people from the church. She saw me in a store once an didn't come up to me for that reason. Then she saw me again a couple days ago,ad deided to say hi whether I liked it or not...She is going to tell anyone she speaks to at church that I did NOT mean no personal calls or visits.

I jut hate that I hurt people..even thoguhit was so not my intention.

And now I am "leaving" another church. I attended a local baptist church for awhile. Now,,,it's just not where God wants me anymore,ut oce again,i am trying to expain that without hurting anyone.


it's...not personal. I just think the whole corporate worship thing is so messed up. I don't think it's what God wanted. I wanted churh to be another way to worship God....but it felt like He wasn't there. it was just..so empty,like going thru the motions,rather than being real.

Real is..a woman from the church spontaneously praying for me when I talked about some family issues. It's...God telling me out of no where that a good friend needs prayers. It's a good friend calling right hwen I needed to talk,because God told her to. It's my daughter dancing to prasie videos on you tube. Watching her calm down and fall asleep after praying for God to keep her safe,after a bad dream. I could go on..this is just how I live. Worship can happen anytime,anywhere.

God is my life,yanno? it's not just Sunday morning. Prayer isnt just a a part of my life..we are to "pray without ceasing".

That was on issue i had with the Baptist church The last Sunday I was there,the pastor preached on prayer. he said a lot of people think prayer is mostly personal with corporate aspect. he says it's actually the opposite..it is corporate witha personal aspect.


But ,I'm sad as, I REALLY liked the people. Rachel loved Sunday school.

I don't know how to explain any of this without hurting anyone,or coming across as judgmental.

They think they did somethig rong,so i do need to explain..I kowGod will give me the words...Still scared to make the call.